Robinstar99

it's like a sense of accomplishment for finding such a great deal but because it's such a good deal you buy 30 of everything and then suddenly you have no money so you're happy but you feel empty inside at the same time

okay i didn't buy 30 of anything but I did buy 3 wigs, more wig caps, and a binding top all for under $30 which is good but that was all my money and I ordered the wrong type of wig cap

I think I can still cancel the order and get the right ones and still get my money back but I have to ask my mom first since it's all on her debit card I just gave her cash. Oh well.

Anyway here's a list of the cosplays I'm hoping to do next:

• Undertaker from Black Butler- I have a big group that wants to do a panel at AMKE 2016 so I of course get to be my favorite character from the series which is perf
• Kyoya Ootori from Ouran High School Host Club- again, big group. I don't even really know why we're doing this other than Alyssa already bought her jacket and everything else for Honey
• Zero Kiryuu from Vampire Knight- the main reason behind this is I always try to find someone I'd cosplay as when I watch a new anime and I brought it up to my friend who was like HECK YEA I'LL BE KANAME and then she dragged our friend with money (alyssa) into it and she bought her stuff for Yuuki already. So now we have to. But I'm okay with this it shouldn't be too hard right? My main concern is me and heatherly both are poor and don't have parents that will buy stuff for our happiness unless it's christmas so we have to make everything by hand. WHAT EVEN IS THE DESIGN ON THE JACKET FOR THE UNIFORM HOW AM I GOING TO DO THAT. ribbon. i can use ribbon or something. that will work.
  
• Haruka Nanase from Free!- I can use the same wig I ordered for Kyoya and also Haru is my spirit animal and I have someone that would be Makoto too which would be fun. Maybe I'll do a genderswapped version so I can get swimming shots.
  
• Genderswapped Rei Ryugazaki from Free!- I have been unconsciously buying cosplay stuff for Rei since I got my new glasses and swimsuit. Remember when I said that Haru is my spirit animal? I wasn't lying, but there is definitely some Rei in there too; I'm like the HaRei lovechild I swear. I would go in depth on this but now isn't the time. (genderswap for sure since I already have a swimsuit)
  
• Kaneki Ken from Tokyo Ghoul- this one would be on my own but with the two wigs I'm ordering I can do either version of him and I'm excited
• there are more but this is a good list for now these are the most likely for me to do before any of the others. My goal is to finish at least the first three before the end of the year, or at least before March.

But yea that's my plan for the summer. C o s p l a y.

So apparently my friend's friend's boyfriend is a pro photographer looking to get more experience, so my cosplay group and I were invited to have a free photoshoot this sunday!
I'll probably upload a few pictures from it when we get them, but I was excited so I thought I'd let you guys know.

I'm feeling a lot better lately, so disregard my previous entry about being existential. I'll still upload stuff, but I'm definitely going to be deleting some of my older stuff too. Just clean out the mess and whatnot. But hey, I'm finally on summer vacation so that's helpful. My mood has gotten significantly better after 2ish weeks of doing nothing but binge watching anime. Hahaaaa I know I'm trash I have started and finished like 6 different series already since school let out. B)

I've been thinking about stopping uploading my stuff here, moving solely to just posting my art on tumblr.

It's not like it really matters that much, none of my actual deviantart friends are active on here anymore anyway, and those who are follow me on tumblr or I follow them, etc.
It's not like I have a future in this business. Starving artist is a real thing. I'm not good enough and I probably won't be to be able to break out of that stereotype, even once I'm old enough to move out of my parents' house. Sure I'm pretty good at sculpting things, above average, but it's not worth anything if people don't buy my stuff. I've had a grand total of 3 commissions in my life, when combined together give me right around $60. No one can live off that. I won't be able to survive solely on my art if I'm averaging at that many commissions/year for $15 each. I need to focus on other more useful things and hope to God that the economy gets better by the time I'm out of school.

I just don't know what.
I don't have any dreams, I never have. I don't really have a plan to fall back on that won't put me in debt because college is expensive. Or, rather, I have too many and I'm not able to choose.
I just don't want to be stuck doing just one thing for my entire life.

In short, my icon is actually me, I am Haruka Nanase, please give me advice for my future because I am absolutely lost and kind of delusional (if I ignore the thing, the thing will cease to exist; the thing being my future. I know that's not exactly what happened w/ Haru but bear with me here), the end.

jk i wish i was on a rocketship
ANYWAY
I'm going on a band trip down to FLO RIDA
yeAH
Leaving tomorrow so don't expect anything from me in the next week since I won't have access to a computer and the dA mobile app sucks butt imo
Will take pictures
Should I do Cas Goes Places again? He's already been on a trip to Florida so I'm not sure if I should bring him along or not.

Anyway
See you in a week!
Yours,
~RS

PS I am better emotionally for the time being for those of you that commented on my previous journal entry.

I joined three clubs this week, those being French club, art club, and anime club.

Okay so you know those weird high-school lipdub videos that exist? Well my school did one last year, and they're doing one again this year featuring all the sports and clubs and things and anime club is doing cosplay. I was thinking I could do L since it'd be easy to pull together in the short amount of time we have to do so, except for maybe the wig (I'd have to figure out how to gel it since my mom isn't too fond on spending a lot of money on things like that, but I think I can pull it off). We have like a week and a half before Homecoming (I guess technically two weeks, but we're not sure what day we'll be filming the video yet). But yeah. So that's a thing.
I'm excited about it.