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jk i wish i was on a rocketship
ANYWAY
I'm going on a band trip down to FLO RIDA
yeAH
Leaving tomorrow so don't expect anything from me in the next week since I won't have access to a computer and the dA mobile app sucks butt imo
Will take pictures
Should I do Cas Goes Places again? He's already been on a trip to Florida so I'm not sure if I should bring him along or not.

Anyway
See you in a week!
Yours,
~RS

PS I am better emotionally for the time being for those of you that commented on my previous journal entry.
  • Mood: Excited
  • Listening to: Fall Out Boy
  • Reading: To Kill a Mockingbird
  • Watching: Tokyo Ghoul reruns
  • Playing: The World Ends With You
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: water, probably.
[AGGRESSIVELY DOES NOT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW] Q.Q
also i hit post limit on tumblr an hour ago

so here's the thing. i get really into something that no one I know super well is that into, but I still talk about it to them anyway because it means something to me and I get excited about it. Right? I'm sure everyone has had this happen before. But the thing is, the other people that I try to be excited about it with don't care. They dismiss my happiness as dumb and always, without fail, either A: tune me out completely or B: change the subject so that we're talking about them and their lives. Every time. So now, whenever I get excited about anything, I just realize that no one actually cares that for once in my life I'm not a depressed piece of shit that can't do anything right. No one cares, and "Ugh will she just shut up already??"
I catch myself getting excited and kind of just get a jolt like, "Sorry... i'm happy again. You don't like it when I'm happy so I'll just stop now because i'm bothering you...". And I realized that if any of my friends were to go through that same thing then I would be all "HELL NO YOU BE HAPPY AND EXCITED ABOUT THE THING YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY FRIENDS YOU MATTER" but when it happens to me I'm just "Why the fuck do I even let myself feel things I'm a fucking useless piece of shit I shouldn't have even said anything because they're not listening anyway they don't care you're just bothering them."
this isn't okay
this is not an okay thing
I need to surround myself with new people
But it's kind of hard when you're a minor and the main person saying these things to you is your mother.

Not to mention, I'm leaving on a band trip in a few days and my parents have been scrambling to pull the money together so that I can have a good time with my friends down in Florida. My dad even sold his coin collection.
But "hOW DARE YOU ASK FOR ANYTHING AT ALL THIS WEEK WE ARE SPENDING ALL THIS MONEY ON YOU TO GO TO FLORIDA YOU DON'T NEED FOOD EVERY DAY GOD WHAT THE FUCK YOU UNGRATEFUL CHILD NOW GO TO YOUR ROOM AND BE PRODUCTIVE YOU USELESS WASTE OF SPACE" ~the woman that pushed me out of her vagina 15.4 years ago


so yeah
I'm probably not okay and am definitely really tired
sorry for clogging up your message feed with my stupid emotions

yours,
~RS
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: Falling in Reverse
  • Reading: To Kill a Mockingbird
  • Watching: my happiness being slowly drained away
  • Playing: The World Ends With You
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: water, probably.
jk i wish i was on a rocketship
ANYWAY
I'm going on a band trip down to FLO RIDA
yeAH
Leaving tomorrow so don't expect anything from me in the next week since I won't have access to a computer and the dA mobile app sucks butt imo
Will take pictures
Should I do Cas Goes Places again? He's already been on a trip to Florida so I'm not sure if I should bring him along or not.

Anyway
See you in a week!
Yours,
~RS

PS I am better emotionally for the time being for those of you that commented on my previous journal entry.
  • Mood: Excited
  • Listening to: Fall Out Boy
  • Reading: To Kill a Mockingbird
  • Watching: Tokyo Ghoul reruns
  • Playing: The World Ends With You
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: water, probably.

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Melissa
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15, Gryffindor heart, Slytherin mind, asexual/panromantic, INTP, cat AND dog person, mega nerd, weaboo trash, dragon.

Current obsession: Tokyo Ghoul and Attack on Titan

Relationship status: what is "love"

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Corrupted-Mirror Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2015
Thanks for the fave 8)
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course! :D
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Tubby Dummy 
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Ms-Filou Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you so much for the fave! Artimist - Blush / Embarrassed / Shy / Stuttering 
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course! Great cosplay!! ^-^
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Ms-Filou Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
T-thank you .///.
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course! ^.^
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Join the swim team, Haru.
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
But I don't WANT to join the swim team, Haru.
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The-Taboo-Composer Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  New member Hobbyist General Artist
But hear me out, Haru. You get to go in the pool.
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You make a very compelling argument, Haru
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thank you so much for the watch ; u ;
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hawkeye Welcome PLZ Llama Emoji 27 (Awesome) [V2]
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Thanks for the fave 8)
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep! ^.^
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Llama Emoji-09 (Drinking Tea) [V1] 
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh sure! really great job!
I'll be sure to check them out, thanks! ^.^
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thanks for faving! :D
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Of course! ^.^
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Thank you for the watch! It's much appreciated (^_^)/
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Robinstar99 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course! I love your work!! :D
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Thanks for the fave! ^^
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